Brock Matthew Beach

Our son is here. He was born 9/17 at 6:40am. 7.3oz and 19.5in. I will post later with the details of the birth. I was able to have a VBAC and it was an awesome experience. God worked out so many of the things I had prayed for with the delivery and just with Brock's personality in general. This has been a very different experience to have a 38week 4 day baby than a 34 week 4 day baby. those 4 weeks really make a difference. They make a difference for mom and baby. You are ready for the baby to be here and are more prepared mentally instead of being kinda sad that it is all over. I feel sure that I would not have done as well with a vaginal birth if I had not had so much time to prep my mind--and still it was very difficult to push through the hard parts of labor. My recovery so far has been awesome!!! I can't imagine having a c section this time with a 3 year old at home. It would have been horrible. I would have had someone there constantly to help with her and me. At least I feel okay and I can do stuff around the house. I can sit up quickly without pain this time too. It was bad the day that he was born but by the second day I could not even believe the difference in how your body feels after. I only take tylenol for pain--even in the hospital. That is just so different.
Brock is such a good eater. This was one of the biggest obstacles with Arden. He even latched on in the recovery room right after he was born. I can't tell you how it changes things to be able to nurse your baby in 30 min and then get some rest or go on to do something else without it being an hour to get him awake and then an hour fighting with them to nurse. Matt says that we are already to about the 3 month mark if we compare this with our Arden timeline. Every feeding was emotional and frustrating. I couldn't think about anything else and she was so tiny and fragile. Baby boy can already hold his head a little and I am just not as worried about him physically. 2lbs is a big difference in babies. Arden did not weigh 7lbs before 2 months.
We are trying to get used to life at home. Matt is helping tons. I sometimes think that the hardest part is keeping Arden from hurting the baby or just dealing with her not liking to share our time. She usually wants to get what she asks for "now" and she is having to wait. This is a very good thing for her to learn but it is a learning process. Also juggling making sure that I am spending time reading to her and holding her in the bed and not doing too much disciplining. She has been doing this little drama queen stuff lately and I can't stand it. She loves her brother so much ! she is really proud of him and likes him to be in the room with her all the time and to hold him. She is super protective of him.
I am just enjoying this time. I know this could be my last time with a newborn and it is so much sweeter this time around. I am really enjoying having a little baby to hold and I am not really a newborn person. I consider myself a toddler person more. But this time with him has been extremely sweet.
I had my first hormone crying breakdown yesterday. Arden was one side sleeping and he was in his pack and play on the other side and I just started bawling. This should be my nap time---they were both asleep. BUT I could not stop crying. God is so good to me. I don't deserve. It is hard not to feel overwhelmed with the goodness of it all.