a little perspective

You know I wonder if we all struggle with losing focus in our lives. I sure do. I can get discontented pretty easy when I don't feel like going to work, it is raining out and I have to get a 2 year old to the car, or realzing I have gained 5lbs over Christmas and now my goal has to be to lose 10 instead of 5. But perpective comes at the stranges times. Last night I was watching the bachelor and thinking about how i would feel if I was on that show. I wondered at how these beautiful girls could be nervous and feel insecure just like me. I mean these girls are models. The prettiest girls I have ever seen on the show. I just started thinking how sad it all is. All the things we think are important. How I would feel if I was standing on national tv and how you get past all the shallowness of it all. You know, often I forget about my identity in Christ and how that should not just be a small part of who I am ---like a part to the whole. It should be the whole! I was just thinking how much less those girls would be grasping at straws if they really felt good about who they were and how attractive that can make you to everyone around. Not that you are attractive yourself but how attractive Christ can be to people that are looking for hope. Or how attractive Jesus can be to everyone for that matter. Not to be preachy. Just thinking alot last night. I guess I never make new years resolutions. I just think they are silly but maybe i am just intimidated that I wouldn't reach one of my goals and that would really disappoint me. But this is something that I should keep in the forfront of my mind. I need to keep my eyes on Jesus when I feel like i am getting discouraged. I need to count my MANY blessings and think about how wonderful it is that God is right there with me....not sitting up on some thrown in heaven far away.
It is crazy how much the things in this world that we strive for can cloud our mind to the real things of our life. We can even get caught up in being a mother, wife, provider, or employee. I forget my one important identity because I focus on doing all the others perfectly (or as perfect as I can). Hope I am not the only one who feels this way. Maybe I am but I can sure work on it.